But what am I afraid of?
I published the book, yet I still feel as if it’s not good enough.
I am afraid.
Am I afraid that people won’t become engaged in the story. Is it a fear that I won’t succeed. Will my first book ruin my career.
Just release the damn. “Share the link and tell your friends, followers, etc. about the book,” is what I keep telling myself, but no I find all the excuses to not do it.
Help is what I need. I’ve seem to have lost belief in myself. I hate writing. Now I sound like Esther in Sylvia Plath book “The Bell Jar” have I become the character. Oh no I love my life!
Afterthought: ( After I meditate)
Why can’t I release the book?
First thing first I can’t release the book because I keep telling myself I can’t, so the first step is to change my thoughts.
My book is good enough for release. I’ve had the story inside of me for two years and it’s time I share it.
The book was written for fun, so who cares if I get bad reviews I learned a lot by publishing this book, such as: how-to self publish for free, how to get followers on a blog, how to complete a story and move on.
I also learned how to start my publishing company which is really fun.
The book will be released it’s time I let my baby go and grow.
Fear kiss-my-ass. Fear no longer will I allow you to hold me back